Selfishness

As I was hanging clothes out on the line (yes, I really do use a clothesline...lol), I was thinking about how selfish I've been lately. Considering my circumstances, most people would think, "Well, you deserve to think that way" or "You should be thinking about how no one is helping you stay alfoat", but in reality, none of that is true. Yes, I am currently unemployed, trying to raise my son, provide the basic items for him, but, I have had a few people to offer their help to me. For instance, my mother has constantly been the source of help and strength for me, even when her physical strength has not always allowed her to do so.

The blessing has been that by her cooking meals for me and my son, it has given us the opportunity to share our thoughts, feelings, and what God is doing in our lives that day. I am a firm believer that God, in His infinite wisdom, puts circumstances in our lives so that His goodness and mercy can be shown to those who do not experience His never fading love.

Yes, it would be nice to have a house that doesn't look like it has been deserted, or to even have a complete makeover for myself, but those are things that can only be viewed on the outside, not the inside. For those who really know me, they know that I am a person of compassion, love and humor. I believe that making someone laugh opens up a line of communication to get to know someone and make new friends.

In the past and even to this day, I, being a human, still make mistakes that humans tend to do: gossip, lie, etc., but at the end of the day, I have to face God with my sins and repent, knowing that His grace and mercy surpass ANYTHING in this world.

I have learned over the years that the world is not my friend and will make me promises that it will not deliver on, leaving me empty and alone, BUT I know ONE who will never desert me, nor forsake me and will guide me through whatever storms come my way.

So, for those who read this and you do not know Jesus as your personal savior, I'm here to tell you that when you call upon Jesus, there will be peace that will shower you beyond anything you will ever experience.

Yes, it is a commitment to follow Jesus, but it is one that will be with you forever!

Amanda