Anyone who knows me, knows that I'm not a big believer in what others think of me------throughout my teenage and young adult years, it was all about me, what I wanted, where I wanted to go, how long I was gone, well, you get the idea. Even to my family I never really cared what they thought of me because I felt like it was my life and if I wanted to live it a certain way, well, I was going to do just that.
However, once I got married, then divorced and having kids, it dawned on me that it wasn't all about me anymore...it was about others around me....to make sure that they had what they needed and wanted (to the best of my ability). Sure, I have fallen and stubbled and rolled down the mountain along the way, but I still get up, somewhat brush myself off, and continue along the way.
I was watching my 15 year old son work today alongside me at a fireworks stand, and I was so proud of him....although his father chose not to be a part of his life, he doesn't let it bother him one bit (at least that I know of), he does what he needs to do and he goes on with his life. There is little that I would not do for my son and when something is said negatively towards him because he doesn't have the latest gadgets because we are "poor", it makes me angry to the point of boiling!!!
I have never heard him complain because he doesn't have what the other kids his age have, only that he just wants to have a few new clothes...oh, and since he's almost 16, well, a used truck, but hey, I can't blame him there! :)
But see there? I 'm not thinking of me, I'm thinking how ignorant other people are in their way of thinking towards the way we live. So what????
I have not been placed on this earth to please everyone, but one person....Jesus Christ....and even He knows that I'm struggling to keep my composure at times!!!
I have a heart that is filled with love and compassion.....and forgiveness!
So, to those who I have hurt, please forgive me, it was never my intention to hurt you....to those who have hurt me, I forgive you!
It's human nature to make mistakes......it's even more human to admit to them and know when you need to be forgiven and when you need to forgive.
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