Anyone who knows me, knows that I'm not a big believer in what others think of me------throughout my teenage and young adult years, it was all about me, what I wanted, where I wanted to go, how long I was gone, well, you get the idea. Even to my family I never really cared what they thought of me because I felt like it was my life and if I wanted to live it a certain way, well, I was going to do just that.
However, once I got married, then divorced and having kids, it dawned on me that it wasn't all about me anymore...it was about others around me....to make sure that they had what they needed and wanted (to the best of my ability). Sure, I have fallen and stubbled and rolled down the mountain along the way, but I still get up, somewhat brush myself off, and continue along the way.
I was watching my 15 year old son work today alongside me at a fireworks stand, and I was so proud of him....although his father chose not to be a part of his life, he doesn't let it bother him one bit (at least that I know of), he does what he needs to do and he goes on with his life. There is little that I would not do for my son and when something is said negatively towards him because he doesn't have the latest gadgets because we are "poor", it makes me angry to the point of boiling!!!
I have never heard him complain because he doesn't have what the other kids his age have, only that he just wants to have a few new clothes...oh, and since he's almost 16, well, a used truck, but hey, I can't blame him there! :)
But see there? I 'm not thinking of me, I'm thinking how ignorant other people are in their way of thinking towards the way we live. So what????
I have not been placed on this earth to please everyone, but one person....Jesus Christ....and even He knows that I'm struggling to keep my composure at times!!!
I have a heart that is filled with love and compassion.....and forgiveness!
So, to those who I have hurt, please forgive me, it was never my intention to hurt you....to those who have hurt me, I forgive you!
It's human nature to make mistakes......it's even more human to admit to them and know when you need to be forgiven and when you need to forgive.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Life Lessons-What I learn from struggling
I'll be the first to admit that I take things for granted, not only at home, but throughout my life. I always think that I have plenty of time to do things that to some may seem pivotal in keeping order in one's life. To some, keeping up a clean house means a clean and neat life, whereas to others, chaos is a way of dealing with issues within their life.
When you hear the word struggle, do you think of someone who is trying to make ends meet, or someone who is working to keep things together and not fall apart? Struggle means all those things and much, much more. It is more than a state of mind, it's a way of life for some, regardless of their income, education, race, gender, etc.
The current state of our economy has renedered millions of people jobless, wandering about to find a job to keep their heads above water to keep their familes fed, clothed, and housed. Faith at these times, to some, is a life saver, to others, it's just not a quick enough "fix-it" for their current problems.
When I lost my job, I did well for a few months, my bills were being paid, I was able to balance my schoolwork with my son's extracurricular activities. I was even reading the Bible daily because I believed that God was taking care of me even when I couldn't take care of myself or my son.
Now, it's been over a year since I've lost my job, the bills are piling up, facing have the electricity turned off, the prospects of a job have been few and far between and depression has always bee lurking around the corner, watching and waiting for me to give it a foothold into my life.
But, I know....that throughout all the things that the world may throw at me, there is a faith that sustains me and my family through such hard times. It's at times like this that we need to stop and focus on those things that are important.
To some who know me intimately, it may appear that all I seem to do is drift through life, always getting by somehow, with little or no concern about how I get myself into financial binds. Trust me, I know how I get myself into such situations and yes, I have always seemed to come out ahead, but that is the beauty of God's mercy and love towards me.
Let me end this by saying......prayers by those who are in agreement are heard by Jesus and He will intervene on our behalf.
I am asking for prayers from my friends......that me and my son will get through this time with faith and that we will allow Jesus to intercede for us.
When you hear the word struggle, do you think of someone who is trying to make ends meet, or someone who is working to keep things together and not fall apart? Struggle means all those things and much, much more. It is more than a state of mind, it's a way of life for some, regardless of their income, education, race, gender, etc.
The current state of our economy has renedered millions of people jobless, wandering about to find a job to keep their heads above water to keep their familes fed, clothed, and housed. Faith at these times, to some, is a life saver, to others, it's just not a quick enough "fix-it" for their current problems.
When I lost my job, I did well for a few months, my bills were being paid, I was able to balance my schoolwork with my son's extracurricular activities. I was even reading the Bible daily because I believed that God was taking care of me even when I couldn't take care of myself or my son.
Now, it's been over a year since I've lost my job, the bills are piling up, facing have the electricity turned off, the prospects of a job have been few and far between and depression has always bee lurking around the corner, watching and waiting for me to give it a foothold into my life.
But, I know....that throughout all the things that the world may throw at me, there is a faith that sustains me and my family through such hard times. It's at times like this that we need to stop and focus on those things that are important.
To some who know me intimately, it may appear that all I seem to do is drift through life, always getting by somehow, with little or no concern about how I get myself into financial binds. Trust me, I know how I get myself into such situations and yes, I have always seemed to come out ahead, but that is the beauty of God's mercy and love towards me.
Let me end this by saying......prayers by those who are in agreement are heard by Jesus and He will intervene on our behalf.
I am asking for prayers from my friends......that me and my son will get through this time with faith and that we will allow Jesus to intercede for us.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Father's Day
Today is a special day....it's Father's Day! Although compared to Mother's Day, it seems to take a backseat in regards to meaning (something to do with the fact that mother's gave birth to us...lol), it is nevertheless a important day. Father's deserve the same respect as mother's and the Bible tell us as much when it says...."Respect thy mother and father". Yet, in today's society where the emphasis is put on the responsibities of parenthood, the mother seems to always get the praise and the father is in the background. This should be more of 50/50 deal.
Father's sacrifice just as much, if not more, than mothers do at times. The argument may be made that if it wasn't for mothers, there wouldn't be any children.....technically, if it weren't for fathers, none of us would be here. :)
No parent is perfect, mother or father. I know just as many deadbeat moms than dads. To say that one is naturally better than the other is not always the correct answer. Children are a gift from God just as parents are a gift from God. Being a parent is the hardest job in the world, the pay is not monetary, but much more valuable that any money or gold in the world.
My father was not perfect, he had his flaws, but he was MY father for 13 years of my life! 13 years!!! That wasn't enough time for me. He didn't see me graduate high school, marry(divorcing, although I know he would have loved that...lol), having children.....etc.....I miss the man that was my father.
Time does have a way of healing,but it also has a way of removing details of those who have passed on. I can remember what my dad looks like, but as hard as I try, I cannot remember what his voice sounds like, it's as if that part of him went with him in his death.
I think about him alot, my dad, and I wonder that if he had lived, would my life had turned out differently? Would I be struggling as I am right now? Or would he have protected me from the ugly, cruel world? God does not put more on us than we can bear, but I hope God realizes that I'm beginning to suffocate under all this baggage!! (hmmm....sounds likea good topic for my next blog!!)
Returning to the subject at hand......HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all the father's. Take time to spend with your family, listening to your children, for the time will come when they will take flight on their own and become adults.
May each and everyone of you have a truly blessed and loved day!
Take time to be a dad!!!!
Father's sacrifice just as much, if not more, than mothers do at times. The argument may be made that if it wasn't for mothers, there wouldn't be any children.....technically, if it weren't for fathers, none of us would be here. :)
No parent is perfect, mother or father. I know just as many deadbeat moms than dads. To say that one is naturally better than the other is not always the correct answer. Children are a gift from God just as parents are a gift from God. Being a parent is the hardest job in the world, the pay is not monetary, but much more valuable that any money or gold in the world.
My father was not perfect, he had his flaws, but he was MY father for 13 years of my life! 13 years!!! That wasn't enough time for me. He didn't see me graduate high school, marry(divorcing, although I know he would have loved that...lol), having children.....etc.....I miss the man that was my father.
Time does have a way of healing,but it also has a way of removing details of those who have passed on. I can remember what my dad looks like, but as hard as I try, I cannot remember what his voice sounds like, it's as if that part of him went with him in his death.
I think about him alot, my dad, and I wonder that if he had lived, would my life had turned out differently? Would I be struggling as I am right now? Or would he have protected me from the ugly, cruel world? God does not put more on us than we can bear, but I hope God realizes that I'm beginning to suffocate under all this baggage!! (hmmm....sounds likea good topic for my next blog!!)
Returning to the subject at hand......HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all the father's. Take time to spend with your family, listening to your children, for the time will come when they will take flight on their own and become adults.
May each and everyone of you have a truly blessed and loved day!
Take time to be a dad!!!!
Friday, June 18, 2010
Responsibilty
Turn on the television today, pick a channel, and you will find the story of the oil spill on almost every news and information channel on the planet. Throughout the story the word that is repeated more than any other word is "responsibility". 'Who's at fault?", "Who's going to pay for everything?", are just a few of the questions that are being asked on a daily basis by the media and others who are directly impacted by this natural disaster.
People who depend upon and make a living on the ocean are asking the same questions as well as "Who is going to pay for our cost of living?", "How are we to feed our families?". And the people on the coast are struggling already in an economy that seems to constantly favor the rich over the poor.
Responsibilty is the act of being responsible or obligated to something or to a person. In what is being hailed as the worst enviromental disaster in US history, it looks like the rich are responsible for nothing and the poor are responsible for everything. Is it any wonder Americans are getting sick and tired of the way that politicians are running this country into the ground head first?
Until the attitude changes in Washington as well as across America, nothing is going to change!!! It's that simple!!!
Responsibilty is the act of
People who depend upon and make a living on the ocean are asking the same questions as well as "Who is going to pay for our cost of living?", "How are we to feed our families?". And the people on the coast are struggling already in an economy that seems to constantly favor the rich over the poor.
Responsibilty is the act of being responsible or obligated to something or to a person. In what is being hailed as the worst enviromental disaster in US history, it looks like the rich are responsible for nothing and the poor are responsible for everything. Is it any wonder Americans are getting sick and tired of the way that politicians are running this country into the ground head first?
Until the attitude changes in Washington as well as across America, nothing is going to change!!! It's that simple!!!
Responsibilty is the act of
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